A name

A black and white woman stands on the edge
Feet buried, water still, coming up to the shore.
Footprints surround her, stamped by each one.
She displays a short skirt, held by a white button
A U.S Navy shirt, received from her lover.
Hair, pulled back away from her glowing face by a head band,
Rests bountifully on her neck; full, wavy, dark.
Her figure is divine, stocky legs broad chest
Decadent chin and check bones.
She stares down while her lover snaps;
His gaze upon her.
A smile; knowing she is loved
A smile filled in their world.

I am

I am a tea woman
I am a photograph woman
I am a Pisces woman
I am a giraffe woman
I am a green woman
I am a sweets woman
I am a singing woman
I am a curly woman
I am a low maintenance woman
I am a morning woman
I am a strawberry woman
I am a future woman
I am a cougar woman
I am a daisy woman
I am a Sunday woman
I am a new woman
I am a turtle woman
I am a summer woman
I am a dog woman
I am a working woman
I am a music woman
I am a words woman
I am a sign woman
I am a walking woman
I am a faith woman
I am a hand-me-down woman
I am a living woman
I am a Blackbird woman
I am a water woman
I am a big dipper woman.

Reveille

The overwhelming truth and awareness shocks your senses
You don't dare widen your view
Averse at what will be discovered
Muscles tense; beg to be stretched
You breath, as your upper body lifts to the ceiling
Exhale and sink back into your cave
Toes reach for the cold exposure
Arms extend to clutch the air
Then again compress your body like a slinky being pulled and pushed back together
The informer howls in your ear, a never ending sharp reminder
But you treat it as the if the wind just swept through the window
Immersing yourself into the dark oblivion
You feel the warmth of your body and breath
The time elapsed is unknown
But your mind, body, and soul pleads for more and laments.

Dormir

Goodnight.
Give everything I need to make the children smile
Filled with the knowledge to have them never look down.

Goodnight.
Let the happiness that will sustain me for the rest of my life rush through me like a coaster drop.
That the grasp of untangled fingers is the completeness millions seek.

Goodnight.
A nomad on the earth, time after time through the slick burning sky,
with the never ending push for whats to come.

Goodnight.
Find the passion that's hidden under the skin.
Find the hardship that's worth the work.

Goodnight.
Let the days melt upon you with hope and self-worth.
Let the world see what i see in our reflection.

Goodnight.

Daddy

Daddy I’m coming in. I heard you calling Andrews name but you know he is sleeping. But I’m here now what did you want? Daddy why are you lying on the bathroom floor? Why daddy? Daddy can you hear me? Daddy, Daddy get up. Daddy please get up. I don’t understand, please daddy get up! Oh no. You can’t get up daddy can you? You can’t feel your legs can you daddy? Or your arms or your face. You are helpless daddy aren’t you? You are getting worse and worse. I can see it in your face daddy. Now you’re making strange noises. You are not saying words, just noises. Daddy, you’re scaring me. I’m only 12 daddy I don’t know what to do. Mommy never told me what to do when this happens. Do I just stand here and watch you die daddy? No no, I can’t do that. I am going to save you daddy. Drink this daddy; you need to get this in you. Oh daddy don’t push me away. Please don’t’ push me away. Andrew Alex! Andrew Alex! Oh please daddy drink this. I know you don’t understand but please drink this. Please just let me help you. That’s good daddy. Drink more daddy more. Andrew Alex! No daddy don’t close your eyes, you have to stay awake. Stay awake for me daddy. I am not going to let you leave me daddy. You’re not leaving me. Please keep drinking daddy keep drinking. That’s good. You have almost drank all of it. No daddy don’t try and move just yet. I want you to get better. I should ask your questions shouldn’t I daddy? Who am I daddy? Who am I? That’s right. I’m Annie. That’s right. Oh daddy you can sit up now. Yes daddy that’s good. You can talk now daddy. Oh daddy you can move your arms, your legs, your face. Oh I feel so much better now daddy. I am going to go get Andrew and Alex daddy. I am going to tell them everything that just happened but that everything is okay now. Here they come daddy. What daddy? Oh, well yes daddy. I did save you. I saved your life daddy.

I love you daddy.

Overcoming a problem

It was the best and worst feeling at the same time. It gave me complete peace and yet I felt at war. It gave me the feeling that everything was okay. But it wasn't. I knew that for three years.It wasn't me. I needed to find me again. I was lost in my own life. Uncertain of where I was going. Then one day, I just didn't. I just stopped. I didn't feel the need, or the want. I felt control. i felt grounded. I knew who I was. I looked at myself and felt proud. Yes, there are things I could still improve about me. But I am never going to get perfection nor do I expect it. Nor do I want it. All I need is me. I am happy where I am. I am happy with where I am going. I am happy.

Parents

I've asked them to stop.
They have told me
time and time again they would
because they loved me.
They loved me enough
for a day, maybe a week
But love was easier to smoke.
Showing their love, in their mind,
is filling our house
with smoke until our clothes smell.
Do they think I don't notice?
Do they think I don't see when they try and hide?
My life is filled in a smoky haze.
My parents lives, shortened with each inhale
They could stop at any moment.
But oh wait, its too hard they say.
Is that how they want ME to go through life.
Oh, I can't do that mom and dad, its too hard.
Oh mom and dad, even though this might hurt me, I am going to do it anyways
because its easy.
Yes, I guess that's it.
I love them.
They love me.
But for them, love is easier to smoke.